You are a cruel mistress
You come and go as you please
You keep me home & don’t let me out
Your currency is pain
Without warning you show up
And ruin all my plans
Constantly, relentlessly, unforgiving
You slowly sabotage all my relationships
Like a sociopath
You stalk my life
With no remorse
Senseless, detached pain & suffering
You overwhelm me
I cannot think
You control me
I cannot move
I scream internally
But cannot let it out
I am trapped inside myself with
Encroaching self loathing & doubt
You undermine me
My self confidence is at play
You show me no mercy
As the person I was fades away
The detachment you force
Between body and soul
The impossibility of mindfulness
No longer feeling whole
Looking in the mirror
Who is that I see?
Eyes full of pain and anguish
Can that really be me?
From the outside looking in
No one would know
That you plague my life at every turn
Hitting me blow after blow
Like a battered shamed woman
You control me silently
I cannot escape
You stalk me uncontrollably
I won’t lose myself
I will not let you win
I’m a warrior deep down
This skin is thick not thin
You are Fibromyalgia
You don’t own my life
You are here for a short time
I will overcome your strife